Learning and Changing Life & Changing and Learning Life

Learning and Changing Life 

    Changing and Learning Life

Do they mean same?

It must be extremely different or they are related too close.

Both can happen at the same time or in any order, in same person’s life.

But they say “Change is inevitable”

Must be a great thought or it must be really required.

I have learnt it and changed.

I may also say, I have changed and then learnt. 

My thought process is clear, and my mind is stable when I say that to you.

(I am sure you trust my words)

Are you also thinking along with me?

Are you now, straining yourself like me, same way how I used to clutch the meaning of “Inevitable changes in life”?

I used to struggle a lottt, while on the process of understanding these terms –

“CHANGE” “LEARN” “LIFE”

Rather, when I was ignorant on the depth of these terms, I was struggling in life.

Yes I have learnt it in a hard way, and I was forced to take a difficult path.

Everything looked so fine and perfect, but slowly realized, it was just an illusion, or time changed, and gradually that perfect look got degraded, turned out to be really bad.

Illusion was this - “everything is okay”

Problem was, I dint know the meaning of the word “change” and

I never knew or realized the depth of this sentence, “nothing is static”.

Though I used to write essays in school and scored marks on the same topic.

An extreme paradox!

While talking about the change, I would say, that can happen to any one, anywhere and to anything.

It could be to –

a habit, a routine, a situation, a process, a job, a place,
a person, a family, a friend/friends, a belief,a trust, 
a like, a dislike, a hobby, a passion, a feeling,
a conversation, a tone, a look, a style, 

an understanding, an agreement,
an interest, a relation, a pattern, 
a building, a tree, a pet, 
a path, a dream, a hope... 
just anything !

Imagine, there is N number of things to think about. Any thing and everything, any one and everyone is subjected to change.

How many of you will be okay with Life, when any of these, or anything from what I have not scribbled here, changes?

Or what will you do, when anything changes.

Am I different, while thinking about the change or same like you, when I do so?

Do you go ahead as if nothing happened?

Do you learn anything new, when there is a change in life?

Do you change any thing in Life, when you learn anything new?

What are they?

 - What are those changes?

- What do you learn?

Well, am I asking too many questions,

Or not asking the right questions,

Or asking not-so-right questions?

You know that, many of you must have experienced any of these changes in any of the phases.

I would like to know, if any one had a different experience.

Seriously!

Why coz, I was always been rebellious to life when changes happened, in all the phases, though sometimes I feel, there was no change as such.

May be I dint want to change!

May be I never wanted to learn anything new!

May be I was always chained in my own thoughts and justifications?

Is everything the same?

Or still lots of circles or illusion revolving my thoughts?

My thoughts might sound crazy to you.

But can’t help it, It comes by own.

There is nothing hidden, nothing different than I what I feel, what I say.

Ultimately I know to conclude only this way –

I have learnt and I have changed

I have changed and I have learnt.

Good or Bad? 

Yet to learn life and change life…

And Change life and learn life…

And again, life will go on. 

WHO IS GOOD? WHO IS BAD?

Hey, how are you?

I am sure; you are doing good and having a special and different day wherever you are.

If otherwise, let me wish, that this day be really great for you!

May I put my words as simple as me...? (Smiling) 

Thank You!

Past few days, I was thinking who on earth is really BAD, and who is really GOOD.

Well, Lord Krishna already created the course material, a live exercise to help us understand.

Years and years back, he chose two people, rather two special people, two kings for his assignment.

That was to test their wisdom, in fact.

Or may be that was to help them understand a real fact, a truth.

Duryodhana was famous for his cruelty, his savage violence and inhumane nature.

Krishna assigned Duyodhana to find out “One true Good Man”, after searching all over the world.

After spending a long time, roaming all over, and after knowing people across the world, he returned with this answer. 

“I have searched the whole world. 

People are all selfish and wicked. 

I could not find a single man in this world, who is truly good.”

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Hmmm, now disappointed with his finding? Hear the second part of this.

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Next turn was for Yudhishtira (Dharmmaraja), who was loved by every one, for being generous and benevolent. 

Krishna assigned him to find out “One true wicked man”, in the whole world.

Like Duryodhana, Yudhishtira too spent a very long time, in searching for that true evil, and most wicked man in the world.

He came back to report his finding that,

“I have seen the entire world.

People are misled, misguided, misunderstood, ignorant, and blind.

They act in darkness, without knowing the truth.

They fail every time by doing so.

But they are all good by heart.

I could not find a single man who can be called as wicked.”

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Hey, now… I am thinking, based on Krishna’s assignment to these kings and looking at the results they have got.

You tell me, if we do a similar assignment NOW, are we going to see a different result?

I guess, the result will be the same.

What I liked the most is the second part of the assignment and really touched by the answer which Yudhishtira gave.

In my opinion, that’s the real truth and that’s what is happening everywhere and with everyone.

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But I really wish, if each one of us could realize this – that,

There is no one called a TRUE GOOD PERSON or a TRUE BAD PERSON.


Courtesy: Stroy- Bhagavad-gita, Roses- My mom's garden.

Zones

Molecules / Structures / Barriers / Separations / "LOC's" ?

Or a solid truth, that we live in our own islands?

That was a crowded evening as usual, where I cross the circle, where there is always chaos. There would be few faces familiar, but belongs to strangers, whom I meet every day on the same road, same time. But no one shares a smile or any sign of familiarity.

When we are heading towards home, we wouldn’t try to map the way to reach home, no one will try to memorize do I know which road to take, where to take the turn, which landmark to follow.

We are accustomed to an automated program that one foot follows the other foot steps of yours and you are home. J

As used to, I was deeply involved in some thoughts and least conscious about the surroundings, while waiting for the traffic to be clear and cross the road.

Being careless would make you sometimes patient enough, that you could wait until the traffic is completely clear and cross the road slowly peacefully and without fear.

Normally, while waiting to cross the road, I will stand in such a way that I am covered by the rest of the people and peacefully take steps with them. Crossing the road anytime is a big task and I always get nervous.

I felt little unusual when a little girl was walking towards me on the same road where I am standing with a cute smile.

Her smile made me think, do I know this girl?

Clicked Alt F for this face, and awaited for at least a minute or two for the results, with an expression less face.

No... Not found.

I wanted to convince my mind, no, she might have smiled for someone else. I was mistaken.

People started crossing the road, as the traffic was almost clear. There is no Police or Traffic Signal in that circle.

Suddenly this girl ran to me and with a tiny little soft voice, “Hey can I cross the road with you”

That was never expected. Suddenly felt a high level of responsibility and some sort of pressure.

Immediately after asking this, she is not waiting for my permission, she forcefully held my right hand, which was free; my cell phone was on the left hand.

There was no ample time for me to say something to show that I do care for you, but even I am not sure of crossing the road without fear or with confidence.

Most of the times while I cross a road, I am used to hear the driver’s howling or shouting or scolding for my poor or careless way of crossing the road.  I dint get time to tell her about this.

I was not able to understand what made that little girl to think that I will help her to cross the road, safely.

And I could not handle the pressure of the trust that she has put in me.

To be very frank, I was nervous for a while.

All these thoughts flashed in, within some fraction of seconds, and she is looking at me, with full confidence that I am going to take her safely to the other side of the road, with an innocent smile and holding my hand very tight.

“Yes, sure lets cross”, I said.

May be that was the first time I crossed a road with great care and I was extremely alert and so fast while trying to hold my feet on the other side foot path.

Felt I have achieved some thing great after taking her safely to the other side of the road.

More than that some unknown happiness started filling inside mind, can’t name what it was …

She smiled and said… “Thanks a lottttt… Bye… “In the same tiny little voice…but more happiness was filled in her voice.

I could not recollect any formal words that moment. Just smiled and waved a bye…and she went towards the right side of the road.

I came back to my own world of thoughts as I took my way towards the left.

അമ്മ !

അമ്മ

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ഇത് എന്റെ അമ്മയുടെ  കണ്ണട.

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എന്റ്റെ ആദ്യത്തെ  ബ്ലോഗ്‌ പിക്ചര്‍  ഇതായിക്കോട്ടേ ...

കുറെ നാള്‍ കാന്മാനില്ലായിരുന്നു അത്രേ.
പിന്നീട് എപ്പോഴോ പൊട്ടിപോയ രൂപത്തില്‍ കണ്ടു പിടിച്ചു.
ഇപ്പോള്‍ പുതിയ ഒരു കണ്ണട ആണ് ഉപയോഗിക്കുന്നത്.

ഈ ഫോട്ടോ എടുക്കുമ്പോള്‍ ഒരിക്കലും മനസ്സില്‍ ഓര്‍ത്തില്ല ഇതൊരു ബ്ലോഗ്‌ ആയി വരുമെന്ന് !

The Beginning !

Today is a special date, 20, 09, 2009.

Ever since I have heard about blogging or writing over internet pages, I just thought about or imagined myself as a blogger.

Must have created some blank pages many a times, anticipating that I will be an active writer very soon…

Well I don’t even remember where I have created those blank pages.

If at all I have filled in with few words in the profile...what was the content? :) 

While scribbling on my note book, while typing a lengthy SMS, I must have had this thought 100 times, why should not I start writing…

Sit alone…with a thinking hat and an ink filled pen …

If ever I have made an effort, I have realized, writing on a paper with a pen is not a habit of new IT generation.

- Hands almost forgot how to hold a pen…how to follow a neat handwriting :)

- Thoughts and writing won’t be synchronized all the time…

- Few words will be missing some times, or some times there will be lots of spelling mistakes…

Many factors stopped me from writing.

And now,

Yes, I am trying to convince myself that I am starting it…

Getting into writing.

Scattered thoughts are slowly being typed on my word pad :)

It’s really a good thing that we have spell check…

and the Microsoft word is intelligent in giving the right word:)

Well, I did spend almost a day and night thinking what shall be my first blog talking to the world…or at least to me.

To be very frank it was of no use that I spent so much of time thinking what to write.

I dint get any spark, to catch even my own attention, so that I will start writing with a free mind and with free flowing thoughts.

A loooong pause…….

Came back after a long break, with some thought in mind.

Ohh may be this can be called as spark… or a point to start with.

Let me write about the reason behind my blog .

Time being I have no topics to write about. I just need to write one blog, that’s it.

I had a Revelation now, Revelation, due to some Operant Conditioning :)

Even I got quiet surprised when these two words flashed in mind. Coz both these words were buried some where like many other words that I used years back…

Yes, these two are the culprits :) who made me really start writing.

Conditioning is one among the topics in which I took seminar for my OB (Organizational Behavior) Elective. Classical and Operant Conditioning, Pavlovian theories.

We all come across with different revelations, in different phases of life and that’s how we go ahead and learn about life or at least know what life is.

Like you all, I have also had many revelations, external forces, advices (free give-aways) But most of them made no impact in me.

Very recently I had a spark, had a thought, some revelation that I was not thinking for quiet a long time rather for so many years.

Mind was idle, so u know whose workshop it is…:)

I learnt from the consequences of not writing a blog, that’s when I had the revelation that I should start doing it now – this moment.

Would like to thank many of my true friends who have known me, who stood with me through my thick and thin, who inspired me a lot and who could drive me till here….

Well, this is a beginning… :)

An Introduction.

Have no idea what topics to write about. But would like to share some of my thoughts and experiences , which would definitely be a mutual help.

Let me put it this way. The time I spend writing the blog, and the time you spend reading it, let it be really worth and fruitful to both of us.

Sharing a smile with you all…

Really, I see that words can share a smile…

and I feel I am talking to many of you in person.

This is a great feeling.

Cheers for my new blog, have a great day ahead!!!